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Sunday, December 20, 2009

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 20:52:52 GMT

Lots of stuff happening these days
and just noticed that i need faith ,,,,
i need to believe in myself and my decision =)

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 15:09:35 GMT

something u can do ,,, something u cant ,,,
something u can say ,,,, something u cant ,,,,
something u cant see, but u can feel,,,,
Life have a lot of decision which will change your future,,,,

God ,,,, can u guild me?
be me light?

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 18:00:41 GMT

Learn when is time to give up on somethings ...
it wont be work mean it wont ....
reality tell me that i should face the fact, no matter how hurt or tough it is ...
i need to learn how to be strong, how to be tough

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 00:01:09 GMT

math is nice and interesting, however, when u look deeply and being with it longer, u will figure out that your relationship with it is challenging, is complicated, is bad, and u know finally notice that picking math is a wrong opinion, and u will figure notice that older brother's words is truth, is reasonably, but if u once pick it up, u need to bear with it, no regret, u need to over all the challenge and be patient until u find out the good side of it,
life is challenging, however, you can learn a lot from it, it is tough and sad but it is enjoyable and worth it ,,,,

these days, life isn't that great, but i know that, when u let go something, you will see another way to overcome the problem, open your eyes, open your heart, be yourself, and you will find out that life isn't that bad because we are living with love, family and friends is my powers come from, i am not strong, but with those power, i am strong enough to survive in this world, to be loved and to love,

god teaches me one things, to love the people around, to forgive your enemies,
i finally find out that this world is to tell you that if you care about sth too much, you will get yourself into trouble,
into hell, so why dont we let go sometimes, and make our life more wonderful and more happier?

everyone born for some reason, and everyone have her/his own talent, never look down anyone around you
altho i seem weak, but i am not,
when u light my fire up, you will see my talent ....
never use your friends, be nice instead of selfish !

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Sat, 30 May 2009 01:19:12 GMT

time to grow up, time to move on, time to find someone that i can trust,
time to find someone that i can be wif for life ...

lots to pick, but finally i pick one,

might it is not that best,
but i know ,,, if i dot try, i wont know whether it is the best!
=)

Friday, May 15, 2009

Fri, 15 May 2009 16:13:50 GMT

想念我們的過去
想念你對我說的每一句話
今天我才發現你對我的重要
信賴是十分重要的
這點我才知道為什麼我會失去你
愛過恨過
我們還會是朋友嗎
定係你已過得很好已不需要我的存在?
我很想你"可是你對我卻跟陌生人沒有分別吧!
i miss out past! i miss you! i miss being part of your life!
i miss being the most important person in your mind ...
i miss everythings about you, but nth can turn back rite?!
i know i was being selfish, but at least, we can still be frd?

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 15:17:16 GMT

2 down, and one more to go

and i am fucking done my first year university ,,,,

sigh, i want to go bak hk =( but summer school suck !!!

biology and physics ,,,

i need a break from my life,

i need ,,,, to relax ,,,,

i want to commit sucide for some moment

i want to end my life

so i wont feel pain,,,anymore ,,,

i feel like my life is all about academic ,,,,

is that what i want?!"

or just what you want me to?

i feel ,,, depressed ,,,, crazy ,,,, alone ,,, frighting for some impossible stuff

why ,,,, i need to do this?

why,,,, i need to be here?

why? ,,,, why i am a human?

why can i be sth simple?

i just want a simple happy life

isnt that what you want me too?

why you need to push me to the edge!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Sun, 19 Apr 2009 16:06:59 GMT

Happy birthday to me at HK time! ^^ 21 ... is a big number for me ... it represented i am an adult
who take serious responsbility of her life and the time to work hard to return the society
teenagers time seem left me far far away .... barely to have any memorizes.
what i rmb is .... my first sweet 18, 19 birthday ..... it is fully of suprise and warm ....
when i was 18, i was thinking, how great it will be if i left HK to canada for education ..
time to enjoy life...time to socialize ... time to work for my future ... time to complete my dream
when i was 19 ... i was thinking .... how luck i am ... i got what i want .... study sciences .... got a nice bf ...
thats all i want in my life
however, life change .... challenge come .... my 20 is my horrible year .... loose my love ... away from family .... deal with pressure
it is not easy to past my grade 12 year .... it is tough ... but at the end ... i know i can do it ... i know i can do more than i think
thats truth ...
finally got in what i want to study and where i want to study"
time really past first ... this 4 years ..... all i know ... all i memorize is .... academic .... and sport!"
but now i realized that i cant live by myself .... i cant depressed myself ... and suffer all the pressuure
God brings me here and lead me to meet all those sweet people ... life turned so much better"
my life is feel of happiness and joyful ^^
and feel more energic everyday ... not fear for any obstacle ...
because i know if i can gone tho that far, mean i can do it and i can do more than i want"
nth is impossible, impossible mean you never try ...
thats what i learn from swimming pool and how i apply it in my academic field ....
Life is wonderful ..... to learn ... to enjoy ... to accept .... to cross .... to grow
In this year, i wish i could grow up and take things seriously ...
not like a child .... naive and childish
be positive and optimistic ...
be happy ... be smile .... be lovely ....
to be the one to let everyone smile ... and feel how wonderful our life is .... !!!"
sweet 21 for me .... and .... sweet happy birthday for my father =)
i wish i could be in hk and strick with you !
but i know it is time to be independent and grow up like an adult .... and i know thats what you want ..
be strong ,,, and independent .... ^^
thanks for bring me into the world =)

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 15:10:48 GMT

Thanks for you guys ,, my pink family =)

Monday, March 16, 2009

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 12:42:06 GMT

gonna be 21 in a coming month"
21 mean a lot, time to grow up, time to be independent, time to think of future
time to take the responsbility
time to change myself into a strong woman!!!"
school works ,,, is stressful, no matter how hard i work, i feel like i fail for everythings"
To be the top in high school doesnt mean anything
university is another journey of life
Before to step into my next stage of life
i need to think of my goal, my life, what kind of life i want to have"
To be someone important, to be someone special isnt that easy"
To go for a dream is impossible

God i need your direct!!!